Coping, General

“I’m Sorry, I Can’t”

One of the most frustrating thing with chronic illness is making plans. For me, I know I need to make plans or else I will never leave my room but I also know there's a good chance those plans will have to be modified or cancelled. Contrary to popular belief, it's not because I don't… Continue reading “I’m Sorry, I Can’t”

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Coping, General

“I’m Tired”

It means I'm exhausted. I physically and mentally can't do anything anymore. The thought of moving a limb or even blinking seems impossible. It means I'm in so much pain (mentally, physically, sometimes both) that I no longer feel like I can continue living life. I can't cover up the pain anymore or control it.… Continue reading “I’m Tired”

Coping, General, Motivation/Inspo

Locked-In Throwback

About two and a half years ago I found myself at a LifeTeen (youth group) lock-in at my church. Before this point I had never been able to stay overnight at any activities because of my anxiety. This night I wanted to be different though but as everyone started getting ready for bed, I felt… Continue reading Locked-In Throwback

Coping, General

Saying “Goodbyes” again…

I wrote a post a couple months ago about saying, "goodbye," I would like to say that since then I have learned how to deal with change and goodbyes but I haven't. They are still hard and they still suck. This time around I am saying, "goodbye," to my surgeon and to the pastor of… Continue reading Saying “Goodbyes” again…

faith, Motivation/Inspo

What Will You Do When It Ends?

This post ties in with my previous post titled, Living Life. Often times I find myself thinking, "what will I do when things end?" "What will I do after college? What will I do after this appointment? What will I do after hanging out with this friend?" Instead of focusing on the moment, the here and… Continue reading What Will You Do When It Ends?

faith, Motivation/Inspo

Living Life

John 10:10 "A thief comes only to steal and slaughter and destroy; I came so that they might have life and have it more abundantly." Living abundantly is a major theme in the Bible and it has been one that I have struggled with as a chronic illness sufferer. Truly "living life" is hard work!… Continue reading Living Life

Motivation/Inspo

Life isn’t fair, it sucks, and it’s messy.

We don’t realize it until it’s us, until it is our own lives that are falling, “apart.” Or how I like to look at it now, “falling into place.” For me, it was 6th grade. All my friends from elementary school had left me so I was faced with a new school and no friends… Continue reading Life isn’t fair, it sucks, and it’s messy.