Can you guess what fun thing I did today?! If you guessed blood work, you are correct! I had to get blood drawn because I haven't had it done in a while and it is good to just check up on everything. Especially because my body/symptoms are so weird and complex. I have gotten blood… Continue reading Blood of Life
One of the most frustrating thing with chronic illness is making plans. For me, I know I need to make plans or else I will never leave my room but I also know there's a good chance those plans will have to be modified or cancelled. Contrary to popular belief, it's not because I don't… Continue reading “I’m Sorry, I Can’t”
It means I'm exhausted. I physically and mentally can't do anything anymore. The thought of moving a limb or even blinking seems impossible. It means I'm in so much pain (mentally, physically, sometimes both) that I no longer feel like I can continue living life. I can't cover up the pain anymore or control it.… Continue reading “I’m Tired”
About two and a half years ago I found myself at a LifeTeen (youth group) lock-in at my church. Before this point I had never been able to stay overnight at any activities because of my anxiety. This night I wanted to be different though but as everyone started getting ready for bed, I felt… Continue reading Locked-In Throwback
This post ties in with my previous post titled, Living Life. Often times I find myself thinking, "what will I do when things end?" "What will I do after college? What will I do after this appointment? What will I do after hanging out with this friend?" Instead of focusing on the moment, the here and… Continue reading What Will You Do When It Ends?
Just a pic of me because I actually got dressed today in semi-normal clothes, did my hair, and make-up 🙂 Two weeks post-op and I'm finally feeling fine! Two weeks ago I had a left hip arthroscopy to repair a labral tear and fix my femoral acetabular impingement. The recovery involves 4-6 weeks of crutches… Continue reading Finally Feeling Fine
Why do I still have to deal with all this hurting and all this pain? Physically I'm beat up...I have a migraine, my fibromyalgia is acting up, and my hip continues to give me issues. Mentally I'm broken. Last night I realized I have dug myself yet another hole and I'm stuck. I'm depressed. Every… Continue reading Why?